UPSET

Many issues ...

Firstly, I'm upset with everyone. I must be crazy right? I guess I shouldn't even be exist in this world. Sometimes, I am really sick and tired of carrying on with my life. Nobody ever understands how I feel. Yes, I complained. So? That is me. If you knows me well, I would be fine in a while. I may rant, but don't you think that is a way for me to relieve my stress? I do have my down period. Isn't it? I have not been sleeping well lately. Does anybody know? I only talk to one of my friend about this. She understands me more than my family. I guess.

Secondly, one of my closest friend got into a conflict with me. I was upset, really. I want to settle things with her but she doesn't wants to. What can I do? I really don't understand. What have I done wrong? I spent weeks to think about it. But there are no answers to my question. I wonder why am I here. I really want to leave here badly.

Thirdly, I appreciate everything my dad has done for me. I don't wish anyone say something that hurt him. I'm afraid he might feel that he is a burden for me and I don't wish him to touch my things or even help me anymore. I really don't find him a nuisance. I hope he knows me well. Talking about my dad, sometimes I am grateful. However, I feel upset about him sometimes. I feel that I am a useless daughter to him. I don't even know how to help him pay road tax and all the simple stuffs. It is not that I do not want to help. I really want to help but I hope he sees me as someone special not someone useless.

Lastly, my mum is another problem. She doesn't even know the situation each and every time, she started to rant at people just like that. All of them dotes on my sister. Not me at all. Yes, I wish I would rather die. I beg someone, please get me out of here. I can't stand the atmosphere. I am not part of the family at all. I need someone to talk to. Where should I go?

Happy and Sad

Yay, I passed my driving on 16 April. (Y) I was so happy. I thought I would have to go back to the test centre again. Stressed with school. Year 3 in polytechnic sucks. I want to faster graduate! ):

New Post in 2014

Hi everyone, this is my first post in year 2014. My holidays are already here. I'm enjoying and I hope everyone is enjoying too. Goodbye!